“Maybe I was reaching for authenticity through a funhouse mirror. I didn’t know. I just didn’t want to be who I was. It turns out that’s not a specific enough request.”
Have you ever gotten to the point in life where you don’t even “look” in the mirror? Sure you might comb your hair, and make sure you don’t have anything stuck in your teeth, but you don’t actually “see” yourself.
Have you ever looked and been so disappointed by the reflection that was looking back that you walked away in disgust?
We grasp and pull at straws of who we want to be, but never take the time to actually figure out what that “want” actually looks like, or what exercises it will take to be molded into it.
It is not a surface thing. Sure I want the lockdown to lift so that I can fix my hair to stroke my ego a bit. Yep, I want the financial freedom to straighten my teeth. Vanity, vanity, vanity.
More importantly I want to sharpen and hone my values, and beliefs. My deepest character traits, my morals. My what makes me, uniquely me.
Is the reflection true to self? Are the actions in alignment with self?
Do you dare look in the mirror? How does your reflection look?