somewhere in the contrast

morning breaks, the sun shines again in the cool fresh air,

alighting on the branches of the cedar hedge as if the warm glow was coming from within, instead of from out and above

the black squirrel lay silently still, dead on the ground, in the soft green grass, once scurrying to it’s destination, now arriving at the end

so beautiful, so sad, so bright, so harsh

fleeting emotions flush across my psyche, so wonderful, so sad, so hopeful, so final

why do we always have to live in such a state, happy, radiant, ecstatic, intense, worried, angry,

like a dance, a dance to a music that is audible only to oneself, but visible to those brave enough to observe a long period to see through the curtains on the stage of my heart, in that moment they might part to see truly inside

the moment the internal dancer pauses the performance, stops fighting the script, and allows the joy, the sorrow, the pain, the passion to embrace, to complete, to set a new stage to feel deeper, to experience more to accompany the reality of the contrast of life,

high highs, lowest depths of despair, without the contrast where lies the joy

Joy comes in the mourning!

Beautiful but you dare not touch! somewhere in the contrast!

Fighting Demons

I want to write a book, publish a story, place interesting, thought provoking content on my blog.

As a thought, it’s okay, pretty easy and everything is calm. BUT…

One line, one chapter, one attempt and it wakes the demons from their slumber. “Your not good enough!” “Who would be interested in that?” “Can’t you see the world falling apart around you?” ” In the big picture, your words, your thoughts, who cares!”

Sometimes it’s a careless comment, or an attitude that crushes the soul a little more, time after time. Silencing the muse, because if the closest people don’t care…

Then the Voice comes, “what if it’s not for them? Go ahead write it anyway. The dance of your soul is the delight. Just go ahead and write!”

Today I fought the demons off! Today I chose to write.