A few weeks ago I was told that I was not liked because I was “too religious” . I really spent way too much time fighting with these accusations. And trying to wrap my mind around them.
You see in my own mind “being religious” was people who followed a lot of dogma and traditions, were married to a organized religious denomination and followed all of the man made rules. They looked down on anyone that did not believe what they believed or in the very least tried to make others believe their beliefs. And honestly if this IS religious, I don’t want to be this.
I AM FREE! I don’t particularly believe in any traditions, don’t get me wrong some traditions can feel soothing, or up lifting, or comfortable. But because I do religiously take things too deeply to heart and spend far too much time worrying about them handing away my freedom at a great cost to me. I looked up the definition of religious. This was one of the adjectives listed: “(of a belief or practice) forming part of someone’s thought about or worship of a divine being.”he has strong religious convictions” . Wow surprise I am religious after all!
I do believe in a divine creator being. I know that ” I am fearfully and wonderfully made” Psalm 139:14.
I had never considered myself religious, with the exception of a brief time that I jumped onto a “bible thumping rules mode”, before being tamed back to a child of God, loved and treated as such with mercy and grace.
I had considered myself “spiritual” for a long time. I thought this because being spiritual to me was more about the movement of my spirit, as apposed to religious which in my mind had been twisted to be more about the body and how well I could control it to follow rules and traditions.
Being spiritual was to me being lead or directed by the spirit that is given me, not without control but as a willing participant in whatever action. It is a relationship I have with my creator. It is a deep knowledge to a point where it is so deeply known it’s difficult to explain. It’s knowing that there is a God and I matter to him, and because of that love He has for me, I then have surplus to pass on or give to others. It’s about having the ultimate friend to confide in and trust, that will warn you when you are heading into danger and hold you when you fall. It’s about freedom to enjoy life and the living of it. It is about hope and joy and mercy and dreams. It’s about amazement and wonder. Being spiritual is who I am and I can no longer control the fact that I am spiritual I just am. Trying not to be would be like plucking out my own eye, I could not do it.
So am I religious, oh yes thank you, I AM, it is my DNA. I will not apologize for who I AM! Don’t like it you are free also, you are free to walk away.