Yesterday being boxing day, would have been a great day to rest, relax, and recover from the excitement of Christmas. My body and mind and soul were all telling me I was tired. Did I listen? Well of course not!
I had been aware for quite sometime that there was a mess brewing up in one of my rooms in my home. It was calling for attention before it turned into something HUGE. A tiny fire, that if extinguished immediately literally would have taken fifteen or twenty minutes of my attention and five minutes of my husband’s. But did I nip it in the bud? Did I dowse it right away? NO! NO! NO!
I started the job of fighting this massive ‘fire’ as soon as I returned from driving my daughter to her work. I had every intention to take breaks and listen to my body, pace myself, hold onto my inner peace. Well like the saying goes “the road to hell is paved with good intentions”. Don’t ask me who said it, I have no idea, I have heard it all my life.
The job had become physically demanding, my body running on empty. My happy, determined mood did not take long to start to slip. Worse yet, I did not take a break, I did not rest, and it was not long till that ugly little monster started to grow inside of me again.
Worse yet he started feeding on the“poor me vibe”. After all, EVERYONE else in the house were enjoying their restful day, playing with their new ‘toys’. Could they not see how hard I was working? Could they not at least offer to help? Could they not at least pick up the stuff around themselves?
Oh poor, poor me! Oh how ugly that monster is when it rears it’s ugly head.
I could focus on what my family did not do to help me. I could probably make a good case, and convict them, BUT…
God gave me patience, love, and a strong mind. I did not listen to my inner voice crying out to me to take extra care of body and soul. I stubbornly pushed through till my peace had slipped down and was being trampled on by pain and frustration.
The pain in my body started screaming. My frustration of mind, knowing I, yes “I”, had not extinguished the spark before it became an inferno out of control, had me snapping and growling, like an injured dog!
This was not a part of my original design! This was a learned behaviour, a habit, a crutch! This is my behaviour to change!
It’s time to actually listen to myself, it has A LOT to say!
DAY 2 CANDY’S FACTORY RESET:
1.remember fruit, vegetables, meat, water, oh yes and coffee LOL
2.work on schedules, and check lists to maximize productivity, while mindfully observing rest periods for well being and peace.
(FYI I survived day 1 on CANDY’S FACTORY RESET! Slipped a little in dairy, but I am not terribly concerned about dairy anyway. Pushing 50, calcium is good!)