Well it happened.

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I said it wouldn’t happen this year. I had a plan in place. Not again, no not this year!

And then it did…

S.A.D struck, yes, the winter blues, the darkest nights and overcast days, left me broken. Unmotivated and down trodden my ability to function “normally” became strained to the breaking point.

Everyday it’s the same thing…wake up motivated with a plan. Work on school work, drive my daughter to work, a few other routines, then a break. A break that takes all afternoon, supper maybe, then pick up my daughter, then bed.

I have indulged in two full seasons of a Netflix show within a few days. My kids wonder do I still exist.

Every so often I have a couple days of normal, but for the last couple of weeks, ugh!

Thank the Lord for the months of the year. If I get through today, a fresh new start tomorrow.

I know that it’s all an illusion of newness, it’s not any different than today, but I will hold unto it. Refocus, keep my eyes on the prize. Celebrate the milestones along the way.

Good friends, good food, and new things to discover. Beauty and joy!

The days are getting noticeably longer, the sun is actually shining today.

LIFE IS GOOD!

Night beauty!

Now what?

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You have set your goals, you know the steps you need to take to accomplish each of them, you have a time line….

Day one comes and goes. Success!!! Amazing!

Day two comes. You are struggling a bit, but you make it through.

Day three. The struggle to stay focused is tiring. Maybe a little teeny tiny set back won’t hurt.

Day four. First half of the day you are strong, you are focused, lunch time comes…full on crash and burn!!!

Now what? You have tried and tried and tried again. What’s the point of it anyway? Will it really change things for the better anyway?

STOP! Wait! Why is it so easy to fail, and how do you stop it?

One missing link may be that you have not taken the time to reconcile with what you will be leaving behind to get to the new and improved you.

Have you considered the trade offs? Is your subconscious fighting with fear of loss, or change, or that you might miss something good?

If some of your goals have quickly become derailed but you still long to achieve them, now is the time to sit down and make a pros and cons list of where you are, where you want to be, things that you will need to set aside, and things that you will receive when you succeed.

But this alone is not quite enough. Now add the emotional attachment that you have to what you are setting aside. How will it effect your happiness in the long run? What new joy will flood in when you have accomplished your goal?

Mourn and celebrate and then reset your goals with a fresh outlook, and plan, and move more easily forward into the new and improved you because ahead is brighter than behind!

morning light

January treasures!

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I am Canadian ah! So you would think that winter would be no big deal to me. And I must admit when I was a kid the snow was rather fun. Sledding, tobogganing, skidoos, snowmen, forts, yes as a kid winter was fun. But confession time, I really do not like winter. I would much rather hibernate like a big ol’ bear.

This year has been so different though, much more mild temperatures. Not a lot of snow. I have actually ventured out on more than one walk.

What a wonderful, peaceful thing to do in January, usually I don’t leave the house till March, except for work, lol.

The scenery has been magical, with little treasures to be discovered, painted in by the hand of God.

You know, don’t tell anyone, but if Canadian winters would stay above -10C I might even like them. 😉

Numbers, numbers, numbers swimming in my head!

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Numbers like the countdown to my 50th birthday.

Numbers like the, oh my, 50 pounds I want and need to lose.

Numbers like the amount of steps I didn’t take yesterday.

Numbers like the $$$ I need to get away from my life.

Numbers like sleep and awake schedules, and how much time needs to be spend doing what to get to the number of tasks done to reach my goal.

Numbers, numbers, numbers!!!

Becoming Genuine

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“Maybe I was reaching for authenticity through a funhouse mirror. I didn’t know. I just didn’t want to be who I was. It turns out that’s not a specific enough request.”

— R. Eric Thomas, Here For It (Amazon, Bookshop)

Have you ever gotten to the point in life where you don’t even “look” in the mirror? Sure you might comb your hair, and make sure you don’t have anything stuck in your teeth, but you don’t actually “see” yourself.

Have you ever looked and been so disappointed by the reflection that was looking back that you walked away in disgust?

We grasp and pull at straws of who we want to be, but never take the time to actually figure out what that “want” actually looks like, or what exercises it will take to be molded into it.

It is not a surface thing. Sure I want the lockdown to lift so that I can fix my hair to stroke my ego a bit. Yep, I want the financial freedom to straighten my teeth. Vanity, vanity, vanity.

More importantly I want to sharpen and hone my values, and beliefs. My deepest character traits, my morals. My what makes me, uniquely me.

Is the reflection true to self? Are the actions in alignment with self?

Do you dare look in the mirror? How does your reflection look?

Rewriting your script!

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What do you want your story to look like? Do you want quiet and peace, or sizzle and excitement? Do you want corporate ladders, or humanitarian outreaches? Or a combination of all?

What does your mansion look like, or is it a cottage on the beach, a ranch in the foothills perhaps?

Where does your drama come from? What are your pressure points, and how do you deal with them?

What characters are you going to allow into your productions? Who needs to be written out? (Remembering like every good ‘soap opera’, they can in the future return from a comma.)

How much control do you think that you personally have over the script of your life?

You, yes you, are the author of your life!! Are you writing a block buster, or a flop? Are you a super star, or a wanna-be?

Find your peace spot, make your story come to life!