Half a century in the blink of an eye!

Breakfast in bed, with school work, perfect!

I was a little disappointed this morning. I woke up and did not feel any wiser at all.

Somehow I thought that if one was turning as old as I am today, with all the life experiences that I have encountered, I should wake up smarter or wiser or something.

Funny, I really don’t feel much different than yesterday, except maybe a little sad, that I didn’t slow down and bask in life’s experiences more as I was passing through.

The lessons learned young about hurrying along, get up, get dressed, get breakfast,get to school/church/work, get back home, get changed, get to bed, repeat. Not sure how wise these lessons were. With 50 years gone by and the memories of those days quickly slipping away.

One more day, a day of conversation, or togetherness with some of the people I loved and are no more, what a precious gift that would be, if time could freeze for a moment and one could appreciate the heart beat of time as it was happening, basking in pure love and adoration .

Memories, memories, even these are unfaithful and slip and transform in my reckoning. Cruel is the mind!

Please don’t get me wrong, I am not in mourning, or grasped by great sorrow, but only nostalgic for what was and is no more.

In youth you do not understand as time seems to go by at a slow, slow pace and you wish your life away, one hurry up at a time.

I am wise enough to know how I am extremely blessed. A God who loves me, a family to care for me, friends to challenge and celebrate me, no more would a wise person ask for, because nothing else is as sweet.

Today is my birthday, and today I choose to absorb every moment, to slow down and not hurry, to open my senses, to absorb all expressions of love.

Thank you to all that make this journey of life more amazing to me!

Today…

A delight to the senses

Slowly assimilating back into the family. Still tired from the travel, physical work, and adrenaline crash from returning to the familiar.

Problem is that I do not want to go back to how life was managed before the mission trip. “But I am tired!”, whiny voice here.

The schedule was grueling while away, trying to complete as much as possible in as short of time as we could. The work was chewed through and the end of the days were wrapped up with a bow of satisfaction.

I don’t want that to remain there, I want it here also!

Diet was a huge part of our success I believe. We were eating keto with intermittent fasting. Well balanced, healthy, not processed food.

The fresh air, and physical labour made sleep sweet.

Making a grocery list today. Not breaking under the pressure of convenience and the desire for treats.

Fresh whole foods. Moderate quantities/portion control. No unhealthy snacking.

Getting outside into the garden. Absorbing the sunshine, breathing the air, stimulating the senses.

Wrapping the day into a bow of satisfaction of a job well done!

When enough is enough

Bellamy’s birthday photo by Sarah Murray

Yesterday was my grand-dogger’s birthday. She turned two and of course we had a little doggy party for her.

At a birthday party of course there are lots and lots of treats for everyone. But here lies the problem…WHY OH WHY DO I EAT THEM?

Of course cake is delicious and it fills my mouth with wonderful delectable sensation, BUT and it’s a big BUT, my muscles and joints SCREAM even louder at me when I am not careful with what I eat. So why oh why do I continue to eat them?

Here I go again, Halloween, daughter’s birthday, and Christmas fast approaching, my very achy and sore foot goes down! Diet reset, eliminate, and add some colour. Only I can make this happen, I put the fork to my lips.

If you hear me muttering “pain” under my breath when I look at bread, or sugar, I am not really crazy. If you hear me chanting healthy goodness, wonderful flavour when I am about to bite into broccoli I am equally not as crazy.

Breaking it down the next seven days, I can do seven days right?

How about you? Are you also struggling to reset some part of your life, where you know that the long term gain will be amazing compared to the constant pain?