Funny how I thought the sorrow would only be for a little while.
A long life, well lived. Age had caught up to her. Time had stolen away so many things. Bodies wear out.
The love of her life had passed away a few years before and although we knew we had a huge place in her heart, I can only imagine the lonely, silent nights, she laid in her bed longing for the warmth of him snuggling against her.
We couldn’t wish her back to this time and this place. But I do!
In quiet unexpected moments as I go about my day, doing ordinary tasks, it sneaks up, pounces, takes my breath away. The loneliness, the broken piece missing from my heart jabs in stabbing, cutting,hurting all over again.
Do they see the tear steal down my cheek? Wonder at the shadow that passes behind my eyes?
The dawn comes after the darkness, this is the truth, but when will the darkness pass? When the jagged edge of loss wear off and the pain fade away?